At a time like this all I want is to be close to the people I love and to feel loved and comforted in return. The distance between myself and my boyfriend lately has made that almost impossible. All I need is a simple hug or some small gesture that shows he still fucking cares. But the second he tries, if he even tries at all, I back away and don’t want anything to do with him. I wish there was a way to fix this horrible distance and somehow bring things back to how they used to be. I don’t feel loved anymore. Maybe that’s selfish of me, but it’s the truth. And the scariest part about this whole thing is that it’s getting harder and harder for me to love him.

Okay, so I need to log off for the night.

I’ve been staring at this screen for a good two hours now, and clearly it’s not helping with the whole sleeping thing.

Tomorrow I have class from 9:25-11:15, then the boy and I are going out shopping quickly before he works at 2:00. I have some school stuff to work on, and then I’m taking my sister to JoAnn’s to look for fabric for her Dalek prom dress. Then I’m probably going to hang home for the night. I’m going to try to post a bit more on my new weight loss blog also. And possibly take some current body pictures so I have a new starting point for the second part of my journey. Anyway… I hope everyone has a lovely Tuesday.

Oh! And I just realized I never did my vlog for you guys today, so I’ll probably work on that tomorrow afternoon as well. If you have any questions for this week pleeeeeease send me a message. Or else I’m thinking it’ll be another short random video like last week’s.

Night, all! ♥

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